My Story. . .
It took me a while to learn that God was all I needed. I turned to friends and family who told me to turn to God. I didn't believe them. When I was in the fourth grade, I had just gotten back from one of the happiest weeks of my life. My parents pulled my brother, Zachary, and I together. They were getting divorced. My world kind of collapsed there. I thought that it was something that I had done, but of course it wasn't. I did not turn to God. I hadn't accepted him yet, I thought he was just going to heal things right up anyway. A year later my dad told me he was getting remarried. Another woman, who I didn't know well, entering into this family? My parents wouldn't get back together?
Up until that point I went to church to show off to others that I could. It wasn't until I went to Hume Lake Winter Camp in 2011 that the reality of God came into my mind. We sang the song "From the Inside Out"(below). I realized that God WAS real and that he would never leave my side, through my ups and downs. I was, in fact, a sinner. The second I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior, I felt a protective squeeze around my heart.
Up until that point I went to church to show off to others that I could. It wasn't until I went to Hume Lake Winter Camp in 2011 that the reality of God came into my mind. We sang the song "From the Inside Out"(below). I realized that God WAS real and that he would never leave my side, through my ups and downs. I was, in fact, a sinner. The second I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior, I felt a protective squeeze around my heart.
Around August 2011 my step mom was pregnant. I immediately thought "Yay! A new sibling!" Then as I thought more about it...I thought it would be a replacement. I didn't live with my dad. Zachary and I lived with our mom and my dad lived with Donna, my step mom, and Lily, Donna's daughter that my dad adopted. My photos on his desktop were replaced with ultrasounds of the new baby. I felt terrible that my dad would just replace me like that. On March 30, 2012 my half sister Kate was born. I remember that my dad didn't tell me about her birth, or when they left for the hospital, or anything. I had to find out everything through Facebook. That made me feel very left out and unwanted. When I saw that Kate had been born I remember crying out everything I had in me. I prayed and prayed and prayed.When I met her, I stayed in my room in my dad's house. I didn't want to look at her. I didn't want to see anything of Kate's. I especially didn't want to see my dad. But he was my dad and felt sorry for me. He stayed by me anyway. I still am not fond of the idea of Kate in this family, but she needs an older sister to be there for her as well as Lily. I put a smile on my face for my dad because I know to put others before myself. To this day I never regret the decision I made at Hume. I also learned that God won't leave my side no matter how saddened I get through my Dad and other struggles. I know I will never face them alone. Never.